Its how we build our lives. On top of some things. It starts with a good education, upbringing as they say....building up your base, your foundation. Then we build on that, get more and more knowledge...and keep climbing upon blocks on top of two blocks then the 2 on top four blocks at the base take up another 1 and it builds and builds....until...until...
No..it doesn't fall...it links....
With time, other lives merge with yours bringing in more knowledge, their blocks now link with yours...some of them actually now depend on your growth...the link is build when a block sits on top of the two blocks in which only one is yours. The other one is that of someone else's wall....this indicates a link with that other person. You depend on him and he depends on you and life goes on....the wall of blocks keeps building....
Some people may say that the wall becomes stronger with other links...some people say it becomes weaker...with dependencies...different perspectives...
The way things are ....it changes...not every block may link also...may not contribute to the whole wall but it played its part when it did,when it was required...every block is important and deserves respect and praise...
But all is not so happy-happy is it....
Once you have bonded with the other set of blocks and now you start trusting its growth with yours... you start depending on it...you start thinking ahead....you were thinking ahead anyway but now you think ahead based on the trust built over the years....and then...you notice...its not there....you want to build and you are missing that other side of the wall....that block is not there on which to lay your next one...you have your side of the deal but no second block to build the base...for the next step up....
and that is where...it leaves a hole...a hole in your wall...a weak link and you curse yourself...you were better off depending on yourself...why did you let that other wall in your life... forgetting that with the link came with a lot more possibilities that wouldn't have if you had gone on building your own quiet wall....but at that moment in time...you feel disappointed.... downright disappointed...
I am disappointed right now....downright disappointed....
At the end of the day, u have to rely on urself.....
ReplyDeleteAOA bhai, how r u? thank u soooo much for remembering my blog and stopping by.. u blog-ppl r just wonderful wonderful people mashaAllah :)
ReplyDeletehows u and ur wifey and the cute lil chaand of ur life :P i hope everything is good with u inshaAllah and stays the same in all aspects of life - ameen..
glad to see u on wordpress.. i guess im too late here but oh well.. aa toug aii :d wish u a very very blessed Eid.. dher sara khush rahyay aur sab ko khush rakhyay :)
hmm ya, i went thru some of what uv put up here.. bad stuff that hurts so bad, the pain gets almost physical! but i'll tell u what, u finally learn to rely on urself.. u finally realize ur own true potential, it may not be that u succeed at first but u will bcos with each step comes self-confidence, the confidence to grow, to make sure that there will no longer be a need for support from the other block.. YOU urself can build a block so large to cover up for the other.
ReplyDeleteso many lessons in life.. learnt everyday.. big ones and small ones, the ones on which to lay your foundations and the ones that constitute ur 'built' wall..
not all the lessons are easy but when u will have learnt, you will be the wiser :) inshaAllah.
have faith, keep hope alive.. only until then, is all NOT lost!
all the best, i'll pray for u inshaAllah..